Having You

Having You.

Having you was the most horrific, tragic, and miraculous event of my life.
Having you created the deepest panic within my soul.
Having you made my heart swell to extremes.
Having you gave me hope.
Having you filled my body with joy and the most terror ever.
Having you gave me excuses to remove myself from the rest of the world.
Having you gave me the biggest reason to stay in this world.
Having you was the best.
Having you changed EVERYTHING.
Having you made me want to change the world.
Having you opened my heart to others.
Having you kept me close to home.
Having you, my dear sweet Olive.
Having you is beyond any words.
Olive, you are loved, you are feared for your innocence and inner strength and potential that I know is within you.
You Olive, are divine.
And Having You Olive, makes my world complete.
You are true, complete, honest, and so fragile.
Having you makes me realize how close to heaven a person on Earth can be...very, when I'm close to You.
Having you Olive, baby girl, is amazing! Welcome to Earth. Mama loves you and fears you and trusts you.
If I'm to be honest myself, I don't think I really had you at all.
You always had me.
And you always will sweet girl.
Always.

Oh Baby!

I've got it again, that knot in my stomach, heartache. It almost feels like I'm grieving. Grieving a loss that I've never known. It's weird. But it's all coming together soon. ...It being a baby... Loving the pics from Leigh on her blog! Check out that baby bump! Another cool thing about her is that she is an advocate for natural birthing methods and nursing. Her tumblr is fab too and full of gorgeous breast feeding photos!

(P.S. Leigh, I'd love to feature you or get featured on your blog about our dreams for baby and breast feeding-in the future!)

Above images via: the bean and the bear

And then there's, this...

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And...

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A man can never be as sexy as when he is fathering. :) Looking forward to when Kurt is a dad.