Commence to Start.

This got me thinking about a LOT!

1) I will stop panicking about what is out of my control.
2) I will not let others take control from me to the detriment of my own happiness.
3) My happiness may influence others, but it is not decided by others.
4) Life is too precious to spend it worrying.
5) Resting is extremely underrated.
6) I won't wear uncomfortable pants.
7) Rat races are pointless.

I often find myself motivated by the simplest things. Gardening, listening to music, dancing, Mad Men. These things can't be explained or defined or justified. They just are. I like these things. My joy is found in different ways than others'. This is how it is and how it should be. So then, it's strange to think that though these simple things bring me profound joy, I look elsewhere for it. Like, money, popularity (even out of teenage years, popularity crisis can still occur), fame. We humans are odd. We look everywhere but in the place where we actually find peace, for security and happiness. There is nothing worse than ruining a perfectly beautiful day than by worrying and "trying" it away. Of course, personal awareness and growth is good, necessary even. But it's not everything. In fact it's nothing without inner peace.

Kurt often will call me out and tell me to stop being like the "Runaway Bride" character when in the movie Julia Roberts is caught saying her favorite way to eat an egg is the same way her current beau's is. This is classic me. Unfortunately. However, I can say with pride that I have gotten much better in this type of circumstance. Just to prove it, here is a list of thing I know I like.

Tater Tots
Ginger Ale
Dancing
Scrabbled eggs
Bread
Sleeping
Sunny days
Basil
A clean kitchen
A clean refrigerator
A spotless bathroom
A cozy bed
Holding hands
Shoes
The color black
The color green
The color pink
My hair long
Bangs
The country
Country music
Dogs
Horses
Whales
The smell of laundry
Reading non fiction
Cooking shows
"Real Housewives" of anywhere
Camping
The idea of swimming in a lake or the ocean
Bikes
Organizing
Decorating

I don't like stress, anxiety, or heart ache. These things I hate. I will avoid them at all costs.

The Dragonfly Inn/ Frost B&B

Gilmore Girls- quintessential quaintness of the purest form through wit and rhetoric. And never-you-mind that ridiculously amazing B&B, The Dragonfly Inn. Of which, is what my dreams are made of. Breakfast, no doubt is the first thing I think of when I wake up and for sure the best meal of the day. I am queen of breakfasts in our house and by queen, I mean, I make it and eat it by myself because the hubbs isn't interested.

 What the what? Any who...

 Owning a B&B would be stressful and so very rewarding. It would combine my love of all things Martha Stewart (organizing, gardening, decorating, planning, etc.) with Kurt's expertise in all things restaurant. I love the idea and hope to one day make it reality.

Do you have something you dream of one day accomplishing?

Turning 25, and Other Mind-Boggling Things...

Each year up 'till now has felt like another day has past... blah blah blah, NO! I don't feel older!

 It was not a change that I had geared up for, wished for, or even thought was possible. But this time around, when I woke up on the day of my birthday to get ready for lunch with my hubby and parents, I actually felt older. My thoughts and moods were different. I have always had a little meloncholy-ness on my birthday (thougth, I've tried very hard in the past to not feel that way) and this time around, from the literal minute I woke up April 7th 2012, I felt older.

 Very strange, but very welcomed!

 To more explicetly explain it, I feel like I have more of a right to be who I am without explaination. I'm determined to maintain and grow from here and develop those skills that I know God has given me to use on Earth for a more devine cause. Family and friends are not just cool, they are necessary for my ultimate happiness and sucess. I'm so very gratefull for the wonderfull time I have had in the past two days, staring with my birthday and then again on Easter. Kurt and I thank our lucky stars to have such close families who actually like eachother and get along on a regular basis!

 Letter to my husband:

 And to my dear, loving, husband, I could not ask for more. You are simply amazing. I am so blessed to call you my lifetime friend and partner. You spoil me to the bone, and for that, you have no one but yourself to blame! :) I enjoy every minute with you and am looking forward to the day when we sit in our rocking chairs on 50 acres of land thinking about our memories.

 I could not ask for more.
 I love you forever and always.
 My eternal compainion and best friend.
 I'm your's forever baby.
 Love, Your quirky wife. (smelly cat, smelly cat)

One Sentence.

Taking time to enjoy the little things is monumental.

One Sentence A Day?

So, I just heard of a journaling technique that consists of just writing one sentence a day. To be brief, on the Tiny Devotions website-which is rad-I stubbled upon their blog. One topic they discussed was this journal. I love the idea! One sentence, each day. Seems easy enough! I'm thinking about posting my one sentence everyday on here, or maybe I'll just keep it more personal? What do you think? Is that a type of journaling that YOU could commit to? Should I post mine? ...curious!

P.S. Part of the reason this caught my attention at all is because my dad journals. I am so very grateful for his journaling! He will be giving his journals to me when he passes (no time soon, hopefully). I've always wanted to journal but it's always felt very overwhelming and too much. One sentence though, I think I can do!

P.S.S Tiny Devotion's Mala Beads are amazing and beautiful! I want one!

By candlelight

Today I lit some candles throughout the apartment during plain daylight! This may be common to some, but I usually refrain until it's dark outside and more than just my lowly-self is wandering through the place. I enjoyed the scent and knowing that a type of "life form" (being fire) is present. Having the elements around you-water, fire, wind, sun-makes you (me) feel alive and not alone. I think that's why getting outside during the winter months is so important. You feel the wind, you may or may not see the sun...etc. 

What do you think? Do you have a mini fountain around? Do you light candles during the day when you're alone? Do you go for walks to feel the sun and wind? I'm super excited to have this new discovery! :) It may seem silly but the elements really do make me feel less alone! Interesting. 

Finding Peace of Mind

As Goldie Hawn so eloquently put it, "I lost my smile". I will read her book, soon, too! I'm sure it will be inspirational and full of funny reminders on living the life I (we) are supposed to live!

It being the beginning of a new year, I'm determined not to live one day without being the most honest to myself that I can be. I've done a lot of trying to make myself feel a certain way (about a job, a person, a place, a hobby) and I don't find it that great!

I'm a happy person. I always have been. I'm determined to always remain that way.

I will take more walks, do things more independently, read more books (again, after reading Boosypants by Tina Fey, I'm setting out to read Goldie Hawn's 10 Mindful Moments: Giving Our Children-and Ourselves-The Social and Emotional Skills to Reduce Stress and Anxiety for Healthier, Happier Lives, says a mouthful doesn't it?), express love to my husband to my fullest potent, and create healthier and fuller relationships with my friends. It may seem like I'm asking a lot of myself, but really it just comes down to my Peace of Mind...

Surrounding myself with people and things I love...

Doing things I love...

Remembering to stay positive...

Enjoying nature at it's finest...

Taking time out for myself (and trying HOT yoga!)...

Traveling to beautiful places with Kurt...

Enjoying the simple things in life...

What are you doing to make sure your living a happy, healthy life? I want to hear! :)

Fake It 'Till You Make It...

Resolutions-I wasn't going to make a post about them, seems...obvious I suppose, however, for my own sake of typing them out and making them known in black and white, I'm writing this post in a 'fake it 'till you make it' mentality. For those unaware of 'fake it 'till you make it', it's a saying my mom (I'm sure others have said it too) has said throughout my life. It means, until you master something, fake it and act like you have, eventually you will master it. I've used this mentality in my adult life A LOT already! I've always felt that remembering to 'fake it 'till you make it' gave me an ability go beyond myself and my self proclaimed restrictions. I love this saying!

With that in mind, I have a list of resolutions that I will 'fake until I make'- though I'm not sure MY resolutions need to be faked. I actually think My resolutions CAN'T be faked. So anyway...

1. Remembering what's truly important- I don't really need to have an itinerary for my daily life, do I?

2. Learn to sew...better- I'd like to be able to not fake this anymore, I have too many talented friends and family to teach me the techniques! 

3. Surround myself with things I love AND buy and eat more naturally- Beautiful things make me happy and I love the feeling of being as natural as possible, for human and nature's sake.

4. Go and Do- I don't really know how else to say it, but I want to just get up and go and do as much as possible. Travel, eat, play, read, canoe, camp, love, etc. 

There it is! In black and white! :)