Blogging=Expresion

Though I have this blog, I have only recently begun to look at other people's blogs. Since doing so I have found some of the most touching stories, funny videos, and inspirational words. Blogging, to me, is a type of journal. It's cathartic to place photos, thoughts, rants and raves, and anything else you feel is important to you on "paper" or as the case may be- on the Internet for millions of people to view if you wish. I'm truly touched by the families I have observed through blogs and I have laughed absurdly loudly while watching videos (all by myself). What I have found through blogging on my own and from seeing other bloggers blogs is that there is a general understanding among people that we all want to express ourselves and be heard. Even businesses are gaining clientele from blogging and putting themselves "out there". I have benefited from recent blogs emotionally and spiritually and I have gained new insight to organizing and dinner planning. The list goes on and on...

While I have gained so much from browsing blogs, it is obvious that the majority of individuals blogging have a need to feel by doing so. Is just the act of putting thoughts and experiences to computer enough, or are people longing for acceptance and an "a'ta'girl" or "a'ta'boy" type of response? And then another question: is it okay for human beings to seek praise through electronics and to literally "search" for people to associate with.

I think it's awesome and crazy at the same time! I love it. I will continue to blog and search for others like me. The need and desire for human connection is built in us all. We (our spirits) would (and unfortunately sometimes do) die without it. Human connection. Our emotional expressions being met with acceptance and love is key for success, and not the kind that is fiscally rewarding-although that is sometimes the case.

Humans yearn, we need, we want, we feel. We ALL have these factors in us. And of course my mom (and probably your mom as well) was right...live by the GOLDEN RULE: treat others the way you would want them to treat you!

Air Force Time

Air Force Time and Kurt and my time are two very different things (as we have recently discovered). No more than a week ago Kurt wasn't scheduled to leave for basic training (boot camp) for another three or four months. Two days ago we found out that he may be packing up in a month! Though the money that comes from this surprise will be greatly appreciated and well needed, the though of my dear husband leaving is a very scary thought. Last fall we had spoken with his recurter who offered us little detail about the in's and out's of the whole situation and kind of just left it as "time will tell". Then, we didn't know if he'd be leaving sooner or later either, but I had adjusted my thinking and put great effort in preparing myself for being alone for a couple months. Now, it's as if I just found out all over again and it's very VERY scary.

I do, however, feel that now I am in a better place emotionaly and personaly to overcome any hardship that we may encounter, but I enjoy him so much...just knowing that he is home from work is great relief to me at night! I won't have that feeling for months when he leaves and that isn't something I want to think too much about. I know it's his life long goal to join the Air Force and be a part of something big like that, and I know without a doubt that he will succeed and be extraordinary at his job as a soldier, but he will always be my husband-the one person in this world that I trust with my life, and my love. I will forever be greatful and honered to be married to such a wonderful man, but gosh darnit, he better not try to be brave!

Cake!

So...I remembered this picture of our wedding cake and I can't wait until we eat the last layer (that was on top) which is chocolate cake with raspberry filling!!!! I loooovvveedd our cake so much! My friend who makes cakes make it for us and I hardly gave her anything to go by...I basically told her the colors and I wanted a "lace accent". She was a little disgusted at me with my lack of description...which is usual, but she read my mind and when I saw it, I just about died! Thank you Faith and I can't wait to eat our last layer....the piece I had at the wedding was beyond delicious!!!!

So Girly!

I'm not too sure if it's because I'm now a wife and something in my brain cortex is being secretly and inadvertently drawn to uber-sensitive, girly, chick lit, chick movies, and things of my childhood-like Disney movies! Sure, I've always been drawn to shows and books that have a somewhat disjointed romantic plot weaved within them, but geesh...I've really hit the female hormone overload! My face hasn't graced the pristene silencing walls of a library in years for other than the occasional school text book and just a few days ago I went bras-to-the-walls and borrowed three whole novels (each one long enough to take me six months to read) and one by Bill Crosby called "Come On People!" Now that I have this overwhelming stack of hardcover books staring at me everyday, I have made a plan to take two back and keep one novel "Shoe Addicts Anonymous" -totally chick lit, and the Bill Crosby book- to make me feel like maybe I'm learning something other than how to buy the newest pair of Manolo Blahniks at somewhat of a reasonable price, like less than $1,000. Ridiculous! I feel absurd and still somewhat whole and well rounded reading books that contain no substance other than expensive martinis and retail shopping at no consequence except for maybe the bad credit that will follow one that is a shopaholic likened in the heroic characters of my newly profound novels.

This world is completely foreign to me! I don't know whether I should try to control my urge to read these type books, in fear that they will rub off on me and my already ----aholic tendencies will continue and even worsen, or do I run with it- this is my new style, my new "grown-up" (ironic to me in a sense) way of thinking and interest. I suppose until I decide to stop all of the confusion and go with my usual choice of read: the self-help book, I will journey through the dangerous world of female drama and wishful thinking. Adios to the world of reality and depth, and a giant two checked "mmuah, mmuah" to the land of girly obliviousness!

A Shout-out!!!

So this is my shout-out to my family and friends....cheeeeezzzyyy, I know, but I can't help it! I'm in the mood for it so...

I love my parents for all of their hard work and diligence at work and at raising a stubborn little girl like myself

I love Kurt for the kindness and patience that he has for me and life in general-you truly are amazing in my eyes and I love you more than anything in the world for all that you are

I love my parents-in-law for raising such a wonderful man for me to marry and for opening your home and hearts so much to me, I always feel welcome and loved!

I love my friends who stick by me, though I text and call at all odd times of the day with absolutely random questions and concerns...you help complete me! :)

oh..and P.S. I love you Kitty Prancer Frost-she's our doggy that is more like a child to me! She's a good snuggler when Kurt's gone! :)

My shout-out is over!

My Prayer this Sunday

Happy Sunday! I just read the home teaching suggestion on the churches website and felt such a deep connection to the words that he spoke of prayer and the power it has. I know without a doubt in my heart and mind that prayer is powerful and one of the best things to do when in need. My prayers, I feel, are often asking for the same thing in different ways...but I have come to realize that my needs and prayers are just as powerful one day as they are the next and Heavenly Father listens and answers those prayers just the same! It is my fervent prayer that I can be a loyal, loving, and best wife that I can be for Kurt and that we have an always happy and healthy family. I pray that our good doings may help uplift others and that we will always strive to be there for one another. I also pray that we will find the strength to be the good leader and example for our future children as God would have us be.

I must confess that my life is full of bumps...I could even say pot holes and drain sewers, that I constantly fall into. I mess up alllllllll the time! But I know that Heavenly Father loves me just the same-flaws and all-so there's no need to give up trying to do better and praying for the strength to overcome it all!

The First Blog as Mr. and Mrs. Frost

Hello!!!!! So this is my first blog EVER and I'm very excited! Hopefully everyone will be able to keep in touch this way and we can share with y'all the joy we are having as newlyweds! :)