Blogging=Expresion

Though I have this blog, I have only recently begun to look at other people's blogs. Since doing so I have found some of the most touching stories, funny videos, and inspirational words. Blogging, to me, is a type of journal. It's cathartic to place photos, thoughts, rants and raves, and anything else you feel is important to you on "paper" or as the case may be- on the Internet for millions of people to view if you wish. I'm truly touched by the families I have observed through blogs and I have laughed absurdly loudly while watching videos (all by myself). What I have found through blogging on my own and from seeing other bloggers blogs is that there is a general understanding among people that we all want to express ourselves and be heard. Even businesses are gaining clientele from blogging and putting themselves "out there". I have benefited from recent blogs emotionally and spiritually and I have gained new insight to organizing and dinner planning. The list goes on and on...

While I have gained so much from browsing blogs, it is obvious that the majority of individuals blogging have a need to feel by doing so. Is just the act of putting thoughts and experiences to computer enough, or are people longing for acceptance and an "a'ta'girl" or "a'ta'boy" type of response? And then another question: is it okay for human beings to seek praise through electronics and to literally "search" for people to associate with.

I think it's awesome and crazy at the same time! I love it. I will continue to blog and search for others like me. The need and desire for human connection is built in us all. We (our spirits) would (and unfortunately sometimes do) die without it. Human connection. Our emotional expressions being met with acceptance and love is key for success, and not the kind that is fiscally rewarding-although that is sometimes the case.

Humans yearn, we need, we want, we feel. We ALL have these factors in us. And of course my mom (and probably your mom as well) was right...live by the GOLDEN RULE: treat others the way you would want them to treat you!

Air Force Time

Air Force Time and Kurt and my time are two very different things (as we have recently discovered). No more than a week ago Kurt wasn't scheduled to leave for basic training (boot camp) for another three or four months. Two days ago we found out that he may be packing up in a month! Though the money that comes from this surprise will be greatly appreciated and well needed, the though of my dear husband leaving is a very scary thought. Last fall we had spoken with his recurter who offered us little detail about the in's and out's of the whole situation and kind of just left it as "time will tell". Then, we didn't know if he'd be leaving sooner or later either, but I had adjusted my thinking and put great effort in preparing myself for being alone for a couple months. Now, it's as if I just found out all over again and it's very VERY scary.

I do, however, feel that now I am in a better place emotionaly and personaly to overcome any hardship that we may encounter, but I enjoy him so much...just knowing that he is home from work is great relief to me at night! I won't have that feeling for months when he leaves and that isn't something I want to think too much about. I know it's his life long goal to join the Air Force and be a part of something big like that, and I know without a doubt that he will succeed and be extraordinary at his job as a soldier, but he will always be my husband-the one person in this world that I trust with my life, and my love. I will forever be greatful and honered to be married to such a wonderful man, but gosh darnit, he better not try to be brave!