My tinest, huge miracle.

You are forever and always my baby. You came in a tiny little pakage, but you packed a huge punch, didn't you Olive? I'm in awe of you everyday and yet I become paralized at the thought that YOU are MINE. What the what?

You're six months old and hanging out in your 'exer-saucer'. It's a thing of the times that you put a little baby in and they can turn, bounce, make loud noises, and create general baby chaos that is contained and-more often than not-safe. You like it a lot. You can spend a lot of time (10-30 minutes) in there totally enamored with, none other than, the great white tag hanging from one of the "branches" of the "palm tree" that is unrealistically blue and green. You LOVE music, lights, sounds, OH MY! You laugh at daddy the most, but I can tell you think I'm funny too, you're just playing hard to get...I get it, I got your number little girl. You can see. You can hear. You can roll...to the left... but it's rolling so whatever. You're a little smarty pants we think. We should have known, our fab genes would combine and create a super-baby! But in all seriousness, your pretty awesome! Love you Olive! Happy six months!

Having You

Having You.

Having you was the most horrific, tragic, and miraculous event of my life.
Having you created the deepest panic within my soul.
Having you made my heart swell to extremes.
Having you gave me hope.
Having you filled my body with joy and the most terror ever.
Having you gave me excuses to remove myself from the rest of the world.
Having you gave me the biggest reason to stay in this world.
Having you was the best.
Having you changed EVERYTHING.
Having you made me want to change the world.
Having you opened my heart to others.
Having you kept me close to home.
Having you, my dear sweet Olive.
Having you is beyond any words.
Olive, you are loved, you are feared for your innocence and inner strength and potential that I know is within you.
You Olive, are divine.
And Having You Olive, makes my world complete.
You are true, complete, honest, and so fragile.
Having you makes me realize how close to heaven a person on Earth can be...very, when I'm close to You.
Having you Olive, baby girl, is amazing! Welcome to Earth. Mama loves you and fears you and trusts you.
If I'm to be honest myself, I don't think I really had you at all.
You always had me.
And you always will sweet girl.
Always.